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Sunday, November 04, 2007

Sun, 04 Nov 2007 19:42:55 GMT

I haven't wrote on here for about a year or something..

I deleted some blogs because they were pointless &embarrassing.

nightxx

oh my gosh.

Wed, 13 Sep 2006 14:03:25 GMT

She's back =O
Indeed, haven't wrote in ages,
but 'midnightraven1' got me in the mood to write a blog on Xanga,
for once.
As you all know, I'm a myspace ~~bitch~~ now (www.myspace.com/emz_is_emz)
and I intend to stay that way.

I'm only writing
1. because I'm bored
2. because I'm avoiding my homework
3. because I've been reading 'mightnightraven1' s blogs for about 3 years now,
and every time they are interesting and touching.

Maybe I'll just give yu a quick update..

1. Owen broke up with me after 6months and 17 days.
I'm still single, cause I miss him so much.
He said it was because "we're too good friends"
and that it "didn't feel right" ..
which is bulllllshhh..
2. Seren and Beci are lush and I don't know what I'd do without them <3

3. I'm in top set in my classes again this year. iw. dork ~~*cough*~~

~~Here are some pictures..~~

Friends are important right now.

Seren and Beci most <3 They care too much sometimes.x

miss him a bit

Sunday, March 12, 2006

Sun, 12 Mar 2006 15:56:03 GMT

Some pictures!

~> lmao! sorry guys =p

~> my sisters and me looking all posh!

~> Barfly *giggles* like marmite eih?

~> Sofa's parteyyyys are the best. and u know it.

~> After WINNING the gymnastics compertition in Aberystwyth! Did ya hear that =p winning! as in.. WE WON!! AS IN GOLD MEDAL! lol =D heh good times..

~> The whole crew. Indeed, ur jealous. ^.^

~> Owen juggling fire

~> Owen and uni-cicle?!

~> this pic was made by dear Jess (so the person with *me* under is jess okay =p) and in the picture the blur of a person is me.. dancing =( i know, i know, caught in the act..

~> (yes, curly hair does rule you all, get over it)

X~XemzX~X
Quote of the day: no man is worth your tears, and when you find one that is- he wont make you cry.

P.S!!
I'm still a myspazz whore =p so go on my site!!

www.myspace.com/emz_is_emz

Update..

Sat, 04 Mar 2006 10:35:46 GMT

waw I'm surprized I still know the password to this site!

I'm a myspazz whore now =) www.myspace.com/emz_is_emz
Hope you're all okay, You've missed alot but I'm not in the mood to fill you in <3! heh.

Part-eyyyyy tonight ^.^ over 50 people are going o.O eeek, meh, should be fun, HaPpY bIrThDaY sErEn! <33333333333 me loves you! xx

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Quote of the day: 'the grass is always greener on the other side'

Monday, December 05, 2005

Mon, 05 Dec 2005 18:12:26 GMT

{sad story you should hear}

Boy: Baby, we need to talk.

Girl: Ricardo, what do u mean?

Boy: Something has come up...

Girl: What? What's wrong? Is it bad?

Boy: I don't want to hurt you, baby.

Girl: *Thinks* Oh my God, I hope he doesnt break up with me... I love him so much.

Boy: Baby, are you there??

Girl: Yeah, I'm here. What is so important??

Boy: I'm not sure if I should say it..

Girl: Well, you already brought it up, so please just tell me.

Boy: I'm leaving...

Girl: Baby, what are u talking about?? I don't want you to leave me,I love you.

Boy: Not like that, I mean I'm moving far away.

Girl: Why? All of your famliy lives over here.>

Boy: Well, my father is sending me away to a boarding school far away.

Girl: I can't believe this.

[FATHER: (Picks up the other phone, interrupts & yells furiously ERICA!, what did I tell you about talking to boys?!!!... Get off the damn phone!! (And hangs up).]

Boy: Wow, your father sounds really mad.

Girl: You know how he gets, but anyways, I dont want you to go.

Boy: Would you run away with me?

Girl: Baby, you know I would, I would do anything for you, but I can't... You don't know what would happen if I did. My dad would kill me!

Boy: *Sad* It's okay.. I understand, I guess..

Girl: *Thinking*I can't believe what's going on.

Boy: I need to give you something tonite, because I am leaving on flight 1-80 in the morning, so I need to see you now.

Girl: Okay, I will sneak out & meet you at the park.

Boy: Okay, I'll meet you there in 20 minutes.

[They meet at a nearby park, they both hug eachother. And he gives her a note.]

Boy: Here you go, this is for you. I gotta go.

Girl: *Tear* (Begins to cry.)

Boy: Baby, dont cry, you know I love you... But I have to go.

Girl: Okay (Begins to walk away.)

[They both go back home. And Erica begins to read the letter he gave her]

It says...

"Erica,

You probably already know that I'm leaving, I knew this would be better if I wrote a letter explaining the truth about how much I care about you. The truth is, is that I never loved you, I hated you so much, you are my bitch and dont you ever forget that. I never cared about you, and never wanted to talk to you, and be around you.
You really have no clue how much I hate you. Now that I'm leaving I thought you should know that I hate you, bitch. You never did the right thing, and you were never there. I didnt think I could hate someone as much as I hate you. And I never want to see you, for the rest of my life, I will never miss kissing you like before, I never want to cuddle up, how we used to. I will not miss you and that's a promise. You never had my love, and I want you to remember that.
Bitch, you keep this letter because this may be the last thing you have from me. Fuck, I hate you so much. I will not talk to you soon bitch... Goodbye.
- Ricardo"

[ Erica begins to cry, she throws the paper in tha garbage & crys for hours ]

... A day passes, she is sad, depressed and she feels so lonely...
Then she gets a phone call....

Friend: How are you feeling?

Girl: I just cant believe this happened.. I thought he loved me.

Friend: Oh, about that. Ricardo left me a message. A few days ago.
He told me to tell you to look in your jacket pocket or something...

Girl: Umm.. okay.

[She finds a piece of paper in the jacket,

It says:

"Baby I hope you find this before you read my letter. I knew your dad might read it, so I switched a few words...

Hate = Love

Never = Always

Bitch = Baby

Will not= will

.... I hope you didn't take that seriously because I love you with all my heart, and it was so hard to let you go thats why I wanted you to run away with me...
-Ricardo"]

Girl: Oh my God! It's a letter.. Ricardo does love me!!, he must of slipped it into my pocket when he hugged me. I can't believe how stupid I am!!

Friend: lol Okay but I g2g... Call me later.

Girl: *happy*okay, bye, I'll be at home waiting for my baby to call me!

... Erica turns the T.V. on......

>[Breaking news] "An airplane has crashed. Over 47 young boys died,we are still searching for survivors... This is a tragedy we will never forget, this plane was flight 1-80... it was on its way to an
all boys boarding school..." the Reporter says.
[ She turns off the t.v. ... 3 days later, she kills herself, because of the fact that Ricardo was dead & she had nothing to live for... ]

... A day after that the phone rings. Nobody answers. It was
Ricardo, he called to leave a message. "Its Ricardo, I guess you're not home so, I called to let you know that I'm alive, I missed my
flight because I had to see you one last time. So, I hope your not worried. I am staying for good.

{hope you enjoyed it.}

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Wednesday, August 31, 2005

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 09:29:26 GMT

hey-
I know I shouldnt be on xanga, but ah well I'm so bored, anywho-
You've missed loads of stuff- but I can't be botherd to fill you in.. I'm really happy and really sad at the same time!
I'm in all top sets next year...in other words in the same class as a fiew people I don't really get along with.. Dafydd dyed his hair black with red bits, hehe, sophie has got a frindge Annie came back from Florida and swam with Dolphins!

I went to Greece this year, I met a fiew people called, Tom, James, David and Tom number 2 hehe,
We had a great time, and it was really nice there- although I had a tempreture of 105...but yer my parents had to keep putting me like in a loud of ice and stuff..but it's all gooooood!

James is coming down to visit me. my parents really wanted something to happen between me and him- they were like "oh hes a lovely boy!" "hes got an eye for our Emz i see!" and stuff... i dont think they've reolised hes over 3years older than me!

?gimmie all you'r poison and gimmie all your pills,gimmie all your hopless hearts and make me ill, you're running after something that you'll never kill, if this is what you want then fire at will?/FONT>

thank you for the venom
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P.S! how do upload photos that arn't off a site, but inside a file on your computer?

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

Tue, 03 May 2005 16:59:00 GMT

Hello.

Annie goes out with Russel. I know so cute eih?

Seren said sorry on her site 4 the stuff she sed. Ok thats fine, thanx Ser, and I'm sorry to, u've really gotten better now. Ah well. soph and me are married. I kicked Dafydd D for kissing her when he knows shes MY wife. ehem, i'm having an afair with Adi though, sorry soph, lol
Im gna see Diggins tomoz...yey!

I LUV U ALL! LIFE ROCKS, NEVER GIVE UP,
THERE IS SUCH THING AS A HAPPY ENDING
WE ALL HAVE A KNIGHT IN SHINING AMOUR
THEY PROBS JUST GOT LOST OR TOOK A WRONG TURN SUMWHERE, THEY WILL COME

ehem.
ye
its all gd
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Thursday, April 28, 2005

Thu, 28 Apr 2005 14:31:39 GMT

I gotta be fast, im band from xanga, what have u missed...

me and alex (a.k.a. diggins) go out now, io had this big choice of eather llew, joel or diggins, most of my m8s sed Diggins so i sed ok, but i really want a b.f in skwl, but ill see how this works out 1st. Russel dumped Seren, Daf and Soph are back together. Dafs b-day was yesturday, and... hmm thats about it...

Im confused about the whole Diggins and Llew thing why do i have 2 choose, sum1 choose 4 me? These girls came up 2 me lunch time and sed "when llew askes u out say no" and i was like why and they were like coz "****** fancies him," i was like REALLY? shes my worst enimey like, we never get along so i ovoid her, its better off 4 both of us, coz then we wont fight, i meen u cant go out 2 sum1 u fight with and they like punch u and ur like thanx! that dnt happen in this world, so like a good girl i walk away

well....everyone is great... luv u all !!
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Monday, April 11, 2005

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 18:09:17 GMT

Jonathon and I are no longer together.How do I feel? Mixed Emotions

[[f I was so damn special why did u leave me here? Why haven't you come back for me? ]]]

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Tuesday, April 05, 2005

Tue, 05 Apr 2005 11:03:25 GMT

ello,

today we decied 2 have a Spring clean, we found loads of old toys, old dolls and toy hourses, i was really freaked out coz hannah and alice kept giving me these dolls and i had no idea that i had them, and they were like confusing me, and i got a head-acke and i was grabbing my hair and like pulling it out, and they kept saying that i just couldn't remember but i thought completly oposite to them, u see the thing with me is, im like an elephant, i never 4get, and i dno, i just like flipped. I hate looking back on memorys, i try 4 ages to 4get them....

You'r neclace hangs from my neck,
As the dark days go bye,
I broke the promise to myself,
I promised i wouldn't cry. by me, emz

I have another poem that hannah wrote 4 me, it's really sad, i cried loads the 1st time i read it :

To Emz,

For aslong as she lived
As much as she tried
Nothing could erase
How much shed cried

She was holding onto something
Something that wasn't there
But it wasn't her fault
But he never even cared

To him she was just a distant memory
But to her he was more
For each night she would cry for him
While bleeding on the floor

What could she do?
How long could she last?
To that fucking bastard
Her love was in the past

One day she will give up
She'd want to die
All because his 'love'
Was nothing but a lie

So tell me now
What should I do?
To save that very special person
That person who is you?

By Hannah Najjar my big sister....

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